Favour

I really should go to bed seeing that my head is pounding and I can't really think, but write I must. Have you ever wondered why out of everyone in a room, the host chooses to favor you? or why you decided to take another route the very day there was a robbery on your usual route? why you survived the sickness that killed another or why you got the job that a thousand very qualified applied for? Did I hear you say coincidences, fate? or luck?, did you say it was your wittiness, your looks, or your carriage? I have been thinking a lot lately and the only conclusion I have come to is that the God of the universe chooses to favor whoever he chooses to.

Life

Life happens to even the best of us. Sometimes well laid plans aren't all they promise to be. I don't know why I typed these words on Feb. 12th 2012, but it's February 14th 2014 and they still ring true. Words are indeed profound, I should capture more of my sage moments. Mercy you are really wise..lol

Songs and gloomy days

I have had a lot of low periods in my life, periods when I thought it was me against the world, No one else cared, I was the only one going through what I was going through,there was no way out of it, I was hopeless and helpless....and the list is unending. In these periods I am unreasonable, work myself up into an almost depressed state and once or twice even entertained suicidal thoughts..(I no get liver sha).

I have had such periods one time too many in my life. looking back now, I realise the one thing that got me through them were songs. I love music, especially christian contemporary music. They have a way of preaching to me like no Pastor can. They have an unassuming, unsuspecting way of bringing God's word to me, such that it sinks in. They have seen me through failure, heartaches, heart breaks and pain. One of such songs is "City on our Knees" by Tobymac. I will share the lyrics of the song with you and maybe, just maybe you can catch a glimpse of what I mean.


If you gotta start somewhere why not here
If you gotta start sometime why not now
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now
Through the fog there is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It’s all up tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

If you gotta start somewhere why not here
If you gotta start sometime why not now
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now
Through the fog there is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It’s all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh-oh-oh

Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
Tonight could last forever
Ooh
Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
As family
We’re family
Oh Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
You and me
Ya, you and me
Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide
In a glorious display
Cuz its all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
If we gotta start somewhere why not here
If we gotta start sometime why not now

Have a blessed day!!

A plea to God for Nigeria

I am sitting at my desk and wondering what 2010 holds for me as an individual, for my family and for the country as a whole. A friend has suggested we seek God's face, really commit the year into His care. I am doing just that but then again I read the papers, hear the comments all around me and experience a profound sadness for the state of the land I belong to. What I feel is far from pride, far from hope, far from peace. what I feel is closer to bleakness, despair and chaos. My heart is being rampaged by a myriad of emotions.

God, Oh God! Can Nigeria be saved? Or as BBC puts it, are we a failed state without hopes of redemption? The streets of our towns are a witness to the state of our nation...dirty, ravaged and all attempts at restructuring appearing like a piece of plaster over a festering sore.

I weep for the land, for the people, a people trugding along like the living dead, a people hit by the wave of corruption, militancy, death and now stigmatized by terrorism.. 2010 is starting out with a bleak outlook, Lord turn our story around, bring us up from the status of scum of Africa..Help us and the future of our unborn generations.

My heart-cry today is that the God of heaven will look down on us with pity and save us from ourselves, our corruption, our self serving attitude, and especially our complacency. God please save Nigeria the country of my birth, the country I call home. Save Nigeria please..

December 1st..yeah!!!

It's the first day of the last month in the year 2009, yippee!!!!..and then ooohhh..It's that time of the year when I have mixed feelings, first of joy for making it this far, then a bit of sadness for all my unaccomplished goals, then finally anxiety, wondering If I can still accomplish any before the year runs out.

What the heck!! this year I will just skip the last two emotions and bask in the first, imagine if that runaway trailer had crushed me?, or robbers had sacked my streets?, or that sickness had killed me?..wait a minute what If I had lost my mother to that stroke? or my sister in the miltant attack?..Abeg o, I have no choice but to be joyfuland bless the God of heaven for deeming it fit to bestow His grace and mercy upon me.

I truly have a lot to be thankful for....
I am thankful for life
I am thankful for health
I am thankful for my family
I am thankful for a great job, and great employers
I am thankful for great friends
and most especially I am thankful for a God that loves me inspite of myself..

When all around you is silent....

Have you ever been surrounded by a lot of people and still felt alone?
Have you ever watched your phone all day and yet the only noise it made was from a reminder you set?
Have you ever logged on to your messenger and though there were several little yellow smileys ,none of them was interested in having a conversation with you? (I know you are thinking, why don't you buzz one of them)
Have you ever felt like church was a routine?
Have you ever felt like your life was a routine?
If you answered yes to any of the questions above, then you will understand what it means for all around you to be silent.When it seems nobody really cares, when it seems like even God has left you to your own devices, when it seems you are all alone in the world. But I learnt one thing recently, that when all around me is silent, that is when I should listen more, because something is brewing , because in a short while something will explode, something that cannot be contained, something that God was working out in the silence..

The talk..

I had the talk twice in one week! Wondering what talk I am refering to? It's the talk you have with the one that never worked out, the one you thought was the "one". The special one that you always wanted to be around, that you could tell anything to,that you thought the world of, but suddenly they said "sorry I don't think we will work out". And that was it, their explanation sounded lame and all you could think was, "maybe, just maybe I wasn't good enough". Then you struggled through the emotions, of hope, then hopelessness , then hate, then self pity, and finally you tried to let go while still wondering what actually went wrong.

Time passes, seasons ccome and go, people come and go, then you are fine again, more beautiful, stronger and with the knowledge that you were not the problem in the first place. Then one day you come across these people and you are bold enough to ask why? That's when the talk happens. Maybe the passage of time makes you more objective and the pain less, but you somehow understand now. The talk is helpful, but you are secretly thrilled by the fact that you can detect a note of longing in their voice , howbeit small. You had the talk, and you know that somewhere in their mind they are still wondering, how their life will have been If you were an active part of it. You walk away from that talk with a smile on your face and springs in your step, secure in the knowledge that, that chapter of your life is finally over.