Imagination

I heard the thumping sound again, at first I thought it was a part of my dream, but this time it startled me out of my sleep, I looked at the time and it was just 3.00am, then I heard it again. Robbers! Robbers! Oh my God!! My heart screamed, I was too afraid to speak or even think, my mouth went dry as I tiptoed to the window, everywhere was dark, thanks to power holding company of Nigeria ,they sure picked a fine time to hold the power. All I could see were shadows, moving shadows, which belonged definitely to men.

As I pondered what to do, sweat trickled down my spine, I got on my knees and crawled to the sitting room door, checked the locks, and when I was satisfied it was well secured, I went back to my watch post. The shadows were still there, but they appeared not to be moving, or is my mind playing games with me, I waited for a few more minutes.., then wait a minute , I felt cold breeze on my back, Power holding company had let go of the power at the same time my eyes went back to the spot were the shadows were a minute ago, now that the security lights were back on, I began to chuckle and then it grew to full blown laughter, there I was on my bedroom floor, beside the window at 3.20am laughing my head off…..

The menacing shadow of men of the underworld I thought I had seen earlier were only the shadows cast by the plywood we had piled up earlier in the day to be used as firewood for my sisters engagement party , maybe the sound that woke me up was one plank sliding against the whole lot and finally landing on it’s resting place, where it was still lying, the floor!! It took a while for me to get back to bed and when I finally did, another loud noise woke me up, but this time it was only my alarm……

When beaten twice, how many times shy are you expected to be?

A popular saying goes thus " Once beaten; twice shy"
When beaten twice, how many times shy are you expected to be?
thoughts wandering, eyes darting here, there, everywhere
Red roses in bloom, cheery faces, ringing voices
tender looks, fingers entwined, steps in sync
hearts in harmony, gold bands in sight
white frost everywhere but here, why?
Heart pounding in my ear
when beaten twice, how many times shy are you expected to be?
Hold back, stay, hold back, stay a vicious circle
swirling, swelling, swallowing, where is the way out?
Thought I saw an open door an instant ago? vanished, vanquished or dissolved
Hope, sweet hope where are you? No where to be found too
These words are supposed to give me release, relief
tis just an unending trend of thoughts, words
Tell me when beaten twice, how many times shy are you expected to be?

That green eyed monster

All kinds of thoughts raced through my mind..... what could have gone wrong, I did everything I knew how to do right, where oh where did I go wrong..my heart cried out as I looked through my messenger list, desperately searching for someone who could share my pain and reduce it's weight, yeah saw glowing yellow icons all over, got down to typing messages when my eyes caught the "busy" note trailing the yellow smiley, wondered why I hadn't noticed it earlier...

All my friends are busy......but I need to talk to somebody, anybody, my heart screamed this time , as the pain from the green eyed monsters squeeze became more pronounced.. I gasped for breathe as I tried to recall a verse, I had learnt in sunday school.... what was it again ..yes... "For the fruits of the spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith...... as it trailed off because somewhere in my mind a voice kept screaming...why weren't you called, why wasn't it given to you.. it is because you are no good, and this voice fueled the strength of the green monster (envy) as it's hold got tighter and strangling.... yeah why wasn't I the one called, yes why wasn't I given.....why? why? why?

As I was about to give in to the pain, the voices, self pity, self deprecation... somewhere in the midst of the chaos I heard a still small voice, at first it was too faint to hear in all the cacophony.....then it became stronger and stronger until I could only here it "Eyes have not seen ; ears have not heard, neither has it entered into the heart of man, what I have prepared for you because you love me and are called according to my purpose" yes , yes I screamed as I exhaled and turned around to see several eyes staring at me like I just stepped out of a psychiatric hospital....I just bursted into laughter as I remembered I was still in the office..

My first time out

This blogspot was born simply out of necessity, I realised a little late in life that I never wanted to be by myself..... (maybe not always in the company of other humans), but many times I have needed to talk to someone...anyone, but everyone who is anyone who I can talk to is BUSY (I hope I haven't lost you yet).

I always thought that the only reason I will ever have for starting my own blogspot was to share my literary genius with the world (hey, you have got to admit that everyone has some amount of literature in them..... okay a tiny wee bit at least), anyway I was wrong in my assumptions....I am creating this spot because I need to share my thought streams however discordant... so If you happen upon my blogspot, try and enjoy my thought streams because thats what they are..... just MY THOUGHT STREAMS.....


Have a blessed day....blessed week...blessed month ... okay and a fulfilled year